Sea Otters

I went to the aquarium today, and i was amazed and automatically fell in love with the sea otters there. They swim around in their little shit tanks, where they are trapped and just used for money.Thousands of people a year come to see them swim around in there confined tanks. They swim around with energy looking cute and having a blast with their little toys and ice. and what i realized was, wow if these little creatures can live happily despite having to be trapped in this place, i think we can do the same! we live in this shit ass world, with shit ass people,but it doesnt mean we cant be happy. I need to stop worrying, being depressed, being sad, and getting angry about stupid things in life, and just smile and be happy. I've been like this for way to long, and i dont know why. well i do, but i'm going to try super hard to let all the bad shit go through and passed me and move on.

Good To You

Everyones around
No words are coming now
And I can't find my breath, can we just say the rest with no sound?
And none of this is enough...

I thought I saw the sign'
Somehwere bewteen the lines
Or maybe it's me, maybe I only see what I want...

no one reads this. but i dont care, this is like an online journal for me anyways.
i'm beginning to confuse myself with a certain aspect of my life or a certain someone.Its kind of one of those times where you are trying to snap yourself out of it, because its not the norm for you, but you cant help it as much as you try to stop yourself. Its feeling like its getting stronger and stronger as the time goes by, but it also feels like its getting more clear as time goes by.
But what i want to know is when it all clears and is fine for me to see, where should i go from there? Should i wait for it to come to me? so i take a chance and speak about it. Although the thought of that kinda scares me because i'm not good for that. maybe i should just take a chance and speak up.