So I haven't written thing in a while. It's been years really!
I need to start writing in here again, i heard that writing helps you heal, it helps you vent as well so that you can move forward. Lets you get all those feeling and thoughts out of your head.

Right now, I'm only thinking about me! My well being, nothing but ME ME ME! Being selfish for the right reasons. For a little over a year I've been struggling with swallowing food and liquids. I lost about 15 pounds because of this. I've been seeing a psychologist for about 3 months, and I've learned alot of myself and the way i've been thinking, that i didn't know i was harming myself with. Although my eating problems still continue, I have hope that one day i will overcome this. It;s been hard though because I can't eat in resturants or round people because i get nervous they will think its gross the way i eat. Because the only way i can swallow by chewing, taking a drink of somesort and spitting out into the cup and swallowing. I don't know why this is the only way i can eat, but this is why i'm self concisous eating around people. But i know i will overcome this its just going to be a slow process, it took years to get to this point, so it might take years to get back to the point i was before.